To top the icing of the suckage cake, there's a video of the event and I'm not in it. Of everything that went on, I'm the only one not in the video. Yeah, ultimate fail.
Fortunately, I had a great reading from Kafka's Ghost. It's so amazing how despite the distance, she's very in tune with me. She has a great skill. She gave me some huge insights on what I think I need and the changes that are going on right now. Love ya, KG!
I decided to do a Valentine's Day spread found here. I decided to use Mermaids for this spread.
1. Past experience with love. Knight of Swords
Whenever someone has expressed interest in me, I would practically flee like this knight is doing. I'd say to myself, "Why is this person interested in me? I don't think I'm anything special." I was all about retreating into myself.
2. Current experience with love. The Hanged Man
A whole lot of nothing is happening right now. I'm just in a stagnant place. Nothing moving forward or back. It just...is.
3. What you have to give in a love relationship. Knave of Swords
I guess I'm up for the challenge of being in a relationship.
4. What I want from a love relationship. 3 of Swords
How funny is it to get this card? What I want is honesty and truth. I want to know the truth, even if it means that I may get hurt.
5. What I need from a love relationship. The Empress
I think I need a relationship where I can fully be myself. A relationship where I can be nurturing to my partner, be sensual and feminine. I need to be that giver, but I also need to learn patience.
6. Future experiences with love. Queen of Swords
This card was interesting to see because I did another relationship spread and this queen came up in the "qualities I look for in a mate" position (using Secret). The Zodiac sign affiliated with her is Libra, who is also the sign of a certain new (now not so new, but you get the point) acquaintance. I don't want to get my hopes up, but it would be super awesome if it was him.