I'm such a girly-girl. I saw the Your Beauty spread on Aeclectic Tarot, and I just had to work with it. It took a couple of attempts to get it the right feel for it, but I think this time it worked.
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1. This represents yourself. 4 of Swords
I am often trapped by the past. I have a desire to move on and embrace whatever is in store for me, but then the feelings of getting emotionally burned creep into my spirit. As a result of that, I just stay in my shell. I never truly express what I want and who I am. It's the drawback to having a Venus in Cancer. That or Secret was telling me that I needed to go to bed.
2. This represents your beauty. 8 of Swords
There is a vulnerability to my beauty. It yearns to shine, but it's scared to. Of course this ties into the 4 of Swords. Being burned from the past just wants my beauty to shy away and be invisible. At the same time, it does want to be able to come forth and be present, but it doesn't want to get hurt again.
3. What your beauty consist of. Strength
I think that there is an inner strength to my beauty that I have yet to embrace. I will be able to bring out the best in myself and the best in others.
4. What your beauty can offer others. 5 of Wands
I have absolutely no idea what this means in regards to what it can offer other people. I'll have people fighting over me? I wish...
5. How you see your beauty. The World
I'm beginning to acknowledge that I'm me. I'm flawed in many ways, and that's what makes me beautiful. I used to cringe at seeing my stretch marks, my bad skin, or my surgery scar, but I can't change that. It's better to let them be a part of me than to spend time hating myself over it. Now that I'm thinking about my view of the card while writing this out, I think back to the photo shoot I did in the park. It was so freeing, it was so amazing. I felt beautiful.
6. How others see your beauty. Knave of Pentacles
There are women out there who are just so beautiful and striking that they're almost unapproachable. I can't really think of a woman who's like that, but I'm sure you know what I mean. I... am not one of those women. That's not to say that I'm putting myself down. It's more like, there's a practical approach. People see that I don't wear makeup except for when I dance, and that adds a humanistic, for lack of a better term, approach. My beauty doesn't intimidate others.
7. Why people are intimidated by your beauty. Queen of Cups
I think people are intimidated by my beauty because it's disarming. I seem to have this ability to draw stories out of people. As much as I like to talk about myself, I think people open up to me and express their feelings to me. It reminds me of this book called the Passion Principle by Donna LeBlanc, where the author categorizes people into the Lover, Creator, Warrior, Visionary, and Prophet. I most identified with the Creator, as someone who tends to be the shoulder to cry on and focuses so much on other people at the expense of my own needs. The Pisces Moon allows me to feel other people's energy, and I think people may get freaked out by that.
8. What your beauty wants you to know. Queen of Pentacles
My beauty wants me to stay true to myself, but I also need to take care of my body. I need to work out more. Take care of my home. I definitely need to go out into nature a lot more as well. Sometimes, walking around the neighborhood makes a whole world of difference.
9. How your beauty will remain at old age. Queen of Swords
It looks like, I'll have to learn about different beauty regimens to keep my youthful appearance and vitality.
The first thing that struck me was that three of the four queens came out. It's also quite telling that the Queen of Wands didn't appear. It's because I'm the least like her. I don't have that certain energy that Queen possesses. Even though she's hunched over, she still has a presence about her. If I see her, I know that I have to pay attention to her. The others have a different presence about them. The Queen of Cups doesn't appear much, but I relate to her in a way that I lack with the Queen of Wands.
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Wednesday, March 17, 2010
Tuesday, March 9, 2010
Palette of Creative Possibilities
I found this absolutely amazing spread on TarotPassages.com called the Palette of Creative Possibilities. Considering that I'm feeling very artistic but having major difficulties in choosing how to express it (wanting to dance, to design costumes for dance and Burning Man, to do makeup etc.), it was just a great spread to find. I'm not even going to attempt recreating the layout on here, but you can see it on the link.
1. The grip: What hold does the creative process have on me at this time? The World
Wow. What a card to appear as the very first card. This card is about my freedom of expression. For the longest time, I felt like I couldn't do that, but now I may actually have the opportunity to do so. It's quite amazing to be able to be free to dance and to do art. It's the place that makes me the happiest.
2. My brushes: How can I best utilize the tools at hand? The Star
It's about trusting in my skills. It's trusting in my abilities. Once I do that, I can develop my creativity even further. I have to trust in my years of dance. Trust that I've learned a lot in makeup and that I still have a lot to learn.
3. Primary color: What sparks my creative impulses? The Lovers
It's what my soul needs. I don't choose when the spark happens. It just does. It's a tug in my gut that I can't ignore. I don't always act on this impulse, but it's so overwhelming actually.
4. Secondary color: What fuels my motivation? 8 of Pentacles
I have a desire to make it perfect. I want it to be clean and polished while allowing my art to express my point of view. I also have a never-ending desire to learn. I'm willing to clean brushes all day if it means that I can learn techniques from a great MUA. I love taking dance workshops and being a student. It's like, yes, I've been belly dancing for over eight years, but I love the feeling of being a complete beginner with the frustrations and all (I think a Suhaila workshop is next on my list).
5. Tertiary color: What drives my long-term commitment to the project? The Hanged Man
I'm giving myself to the universe, and for that moment when I'm on the stage or working on a face or in a sketchbook I'm in a vulnerable place. I've been feeling more that when I do an emotionally meaningful piece, I'm reaching something/one that's beyond my scope of understanding.
6. Painting medium: What can I add to extend and develop my creativity to bring it to a finished result? 8 of Swords
One of the gripes that I have when I see a lot of dancers, especially in tribal fusion, is that I see the technique and the tricks in the movement, but it often misses that something extra. That thing that draws me in and lets me join in on the experience. When I perform, I often wonder if I'm resting on my laurels, and not truly engaging the audience. At the same time, it's scary to be that vulnerable that I just want to show the technique and tricks. I have to endure the really scary aspect of my dance in order to take it to a higher place.
I'm going to sum up this reading in two words: Holy shit! Four majors, and a pair of 8s. Aeclectic Tarot's definition of the 8s involves courage and transformation. It's about having the strength to make change. Wow, how very telling, indeed. I also added up the numbers of the Majors which came to 11 - Justice, and reduced to the High Priestess. Justice is saying that I spent a good portion of my life doing one thing, while denying a part of myself that really wanted to come out. I guess the lay-off has allowed for that other part to come back. The High Priestess is showing me how I can do this while being in the current place I'm in.
1. The grip: What hold does the creative process have on me at this time? The World
Wow. What a card to appear as the very first card. This card is about my freedom of expression. For the longest time, I felt like I couldn't do that, but now I may actually have the opportunity to do so. It's quite amazing to be able to be free to dance and to do art. It's the place that makes me the happiest.
2. My brushes: How can I best utilize the tools at hand? The Star
It's about trusting in my skills. It's trusting in my abilities. Once I do that, I can develop my creativity even further. I have to trust in my years of dance. Trust that I've learned a lot in makeup and that I still have a lot to learn.
3. Primary color: What sparks my creative impulses? The Lovers
It's what my soul needs. I don't choose when the spark happens. It just does. It's a tug in my gut that I can't ignore. I don't always act on this impulse, but it's so overwhelming actually.
4. Secondary color: What fuels my motivation? 8 of Pentacles
I have a desire to make it perfect. I want it to be clean and polished while allowing my art to express my point of view. I also have a never-ending desire to learn. I'm willing to clean brushes all day if it means that I can learn techniques from a great MUA. I love taking dance workshops and being a student. It's like, yes, I've been belly dancing for over eight years, but I love the feeling of being a complete beginner with the frustrations and all (I think a Suhaila workshop is next on my list).
5. Tertiary color: What drives my long-term commitment to the project? The Hanged Man
I'm giving myself to the universe, and for that moment when I'm on the stage or working on a face or in a sketchbook I'm in a vulnerable place. I've been feeling more that when I do an emotionally meaningful piece, I'm reaching something/one that's beyond my scope of understanding.
6. Painting medium: What can I add to extend and develop my creativity to bring it to a finished result? 8 of Swords
One of the gripes that I have when I see a lot of dancers, especially in tribal fusion, is that I see the technique and the tricks in the movement, but it often misses that something extra. That thing that draws me in and lets me join in on the experience. When I perform, I often wonder if I'm resting on my laurels, and not truly engaging the audience. At the same time, it's scary to be that vulnerable that I just want to show the technique and tricks. I have to endure the really scary aspect of my dance in order to take it to a higher place.
I'm going to sum up this reading in two words: Holy shit! Four majors, and a pair of 8s. Aeclectic Tarot's definition of the 8s involves courage and transformation. It's about having the strength to make change. Wow, how very telling, indeed. I also added up the numbers of the Majors which came to 11 - Justice, and reduced to the High Priestess. Justice is saying that I spent a good portion of my life doing one thing, while denying a part of myself that really wanted to come out. I guess the lay-off has allowed for that other part to come back. The High Priestess is showing me how I can do this while being in the current place I'm in.
Sunday, March 7, 2010
Personal Year Spread
YAY! I'm back home from Vegas. Actually, I got in at 8:45 yesterday morning, then stayed at my mom's apartment for half the day. Two days is actually the perfect amount of time to be there. Despite the fact that I played poker in college, I don't really like to gamble much. The hotels on the strip are basically over-sized malls filled with stores that I can find at home. The highlight was seeing Cirque du Soleil's Ka. Absolutely moving artistically.
Now, enough about my time in Vegas. On to spreads! I had to work with Secret and Mermaids once I got home. This spread I found on Aecletic Tarot called the Personal Year spread. Considering that we are in the year of the Empress, and that's my personality and soul card, it was fitting to do it.
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S: The Empress
1. What do I bring to this current cycle? 10 of Cups
Despite everything that has gone on in the past year, I'm still maintaining a positive outlook on life. It has been such a major upgrade from the place I was last year.
2. What is this cycle's beneficial influence? 7 of Cups
I have this need to do so many different things, but I don't know where to begin. I want to take art classes, go back to the gym, pole dance, choreograph, do yoga, meditate, create my altar... All of that usually happens while I'm in bed.
3. What blocks or oppostions do I need to be aware of? The Magician
I may be so focused on myself and what I want that I may not see the big picture. Sometimes, it's just not all about me.
4. What area of my life will be most influenced by this cycle? Ace of Wands
It's creative bursts. It's having the ability to be artistic and creative.
5. What do I need to learn during this cycle? 3 of Wands
I need to learn to create opportunities for myself instead of sitting around and waiting for things to happen.
6. How can I incorporate these lessons into my life? 8 of Swords
I just need to stop with the indecisiveness and self-doubt. That kind of thinking will lead me nowhere.
7. What will be the most likely result at the end of this cycle? Queen of Pentacles
I identify with this queen the most of the four in Secret. I think it's allowing myself to be even more nurturing in my career (dance and makeup), and continue to develop my skills.
Now, enough about my time in Vegas. On to spreads! I had to work with Secret and Mermaids once I got home. This spread I found on Aecletic Tarot called the Personal Year spread. Considering that we are in the year of the Empress, and that's my personality and soul card, it was fitting to do it.
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S: The Empress
1. What do I bring to this current cycle? 10 of Cups
Despite everything that has gone on in the past year, I'm still maintaining a positive outlook on life. It has been such a major upgrade from the place I was last year.
2. What is this cycle's beneficial influence? 7 of Cups
I have this need to do so many different things, but I don't know where to begin. I want to take art classes, go back to the gym, pole dance, choreograph, do yoga, meditate, create my altar... All of that usually happens while I'm in bed.
3. What blocks or oppostions do I need to be aware of? The Magician
I may be so focused on myself and what I want that I may not see the big picture. Sometimes, it's just not all about me.
4. What area of my life will be most influenced by this cycle? Ace of Wands
It's creative bursts. It's having the ability to be artistic and creative.
5. What do I need to learn during this cycle? 3 of Wands
I need to learn to create opportunities for myself instead of sitting around and waiting for things to happen.
6. How can I incorporate these lessons into my life? 8 of Swords
I just need to stop with the indecisiveness and self-doubt. That kind of thinking will lead me nowhere.
7. What will be the most likely result at the end of this cycle? Queen of Pentacles
I identify with this queen the most of the four in Secret. I think it's allowing myself to be even more nurturing in my career (dance and makeup), and continue to develop my skills.
Monday, January 25, 2010
Elements of the Empress
As described in an earlier post, I had a conversation with Kafka's Ghost about finding spreads about my inner self, and what aspects of my self are coming forward. This is mostly due to the presence of the Empress (the first card I see when I open her Tarot of the Sephiroth, and it was one of the Present cards in the name spread). She is also my personality and soul card, and I feel her presence in full force now. She gave me the idea of a spread centered around her.
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1, 2, 3 - Qualities of the conscious self
4, 5, 6 - Qualities of the unconscious self
7 - Past self
8 - Future self
1, 2, 3 - 5 of Pentacles, Knight of Swords, 9 of Cups
At first I was very confused by the presence of the 5 of Pentacles because there was nothing symbolically that made sense. It took a little while for it to actually hit me that I needed to pay attention to the image itself because it's pretty true. I do spend a lot of my free time in front of the camera as an artistic model. There's something beautiful about it, and I feel like I reach a higher plane of being.
The Knight of Swords also makes a lot of sense, as I am very communicative. I will definitely give an opinion though I'm not exactly known for having the most tact. I don't say inappropriate things, but I have a tendency to not think before I speak.
The 9 of Cups is my artist card. It's my creative force. It represents the pleasure I get when I pour my soul into my dance. I think this is when my bond with Her is the strongest. That is where She's channeling Herself into me, and I become Her vessel for expression.
4, 5, 6 - Queen of Pentacles, King of Wands, 6 of Cups
The Queen of Pentacles is a nurturing woman. Dependable. She is also very encouraging. She's the one to turn to when someone needs some very practical advice. This does make sense as I have found myself to be the person that people do turn to for advice. I think she is a positive queen for me, where the Queen of Swords represents the negative aspect of me.
The King of Wands appears a lot in different spreads. I can tell that he has quite the magnetic personality. I like looking at him when he appears. He draws me in. I think that's what I have when people get to know me. I seem to draw people in. Sometimes men tell me that they're extremely attracted to me despite the fact that I don't do anything to warrant it. I think I have a big personality, and like him, I usually stop at nothing to get my way.
Seeing the 6 of Cups was quite interesting to me. I think it's because I have this tendency to replay good events in my head. It's something that I love to do, and I love the fact that it distracts me from the present.
7 - The Hermit
Hmmm... I would say seeing the Hermit is pretty valid. I was constantly searching for who I was. I still am, but I was definitely lost. I never felt comfortable in the 9-5 world. I was constantly changing my appearance. Despite having friends, I was often very solitary. I would retreat into myself.
8 - 8 of Swords
Gah! This damned 8 of Swords! I am so sick of seeing this card, although it reflects how I'm feeling. There is this internal conflict of wanting to come into my own as a woman, but other forces want to keep me in a box. I think the difference is that I'm not having it. My struggle is how to move forward to come into my inner Empress.
Thoughts are always welcome.
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7 E 8
4 5 6
1, 2, 3 - Qualities of the conscious self
4, 5, 6 - Qualities of the unconscious self
7 - Past self
8 - Future self
1, 2, 3 - 5 of Pentacles, Knight of Swords, 9 of Cups
At first I was very confused by the presence of the 5 of Pentacles because there was nothing symbolically that made sense. It took a little while for it to actually hit me that I needed to pay attention to the image itself because it's pretty true. I do spend a lot of my free time in front of the camera as an artistic model. There's something beautiful about it, and I feel like I reach a higher plane of being.
The Knight of Swords also makes a lot of sense, as I am very communicative. I will definitely give an opinion though I'm not exactly known for having the most tact. I don't say inappropriate things, but I have a tendency to not think before I speak.
The 9 of Cups is my artist card. It's my creative force. It represents the pleasure I get when I pour my soul into my dance. I think this is when my bond with Her is the strongest. That is where She's channeling Herself into me, and I become Her vessel for expression.
4, 5, 6 - Queen of Pentacles, King of Wands, 6 of Cups
The Queen of Pentacles is a nurturing woman. Dependable. She is also very encouraging. She's the one to turn to when someone needs some very practical advice. This does make sense as I have found myself to be the person that people do turn to for advice. I think she is a positive queen for me, where the Queen of Swords represents the negative aspect of me.
The King of Wands appears a lot in different spreads. I can tell that he has quite the magnetic personality. I like looking at him when he appears. He draws me in. I think that's what I have when people get to know me. I seem to draw people in. Sometimes men tell me that they're extremely attracted to me despite the fact that I don't do anything to warrant it. I think I have a big personality, and like him, I usually stop at nothing to get my way.
Seeing the 6 of Cups was quite interesting to me. I think it's because I have this tendency to replay good events in my head. It's something that I love to do, and I love the fact that it distracts me from the present.
7 - The Hermit
Hmmm... I would say seeing the Hermit is pretty valid. I was constantly searching for who I was. I still am, but I was definitely lost. I never felt comfortable in the 9-5 world. I was constantly changing my appearance. Despite having friends, I was often very solitary. I would retreat into myself.
8 - 8 of Swords
Gah! This damned 8 of Swords! I am so sick of seeing this card, although it reflects how I'm feeling. There is this internal conflict of wanting to come into my own as a woman, but other forces want to keep me in a box. I think the difference is that I'm not having it. My struggle is how to move forward to come into my inner Empress.
Thoughts are always welcome.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Daily Reading for 1/24
1. What I did well: 2 of Swords
Um... I wasn't really sure what this meant for today. I guess I could classify the swords as my thoughts and my emotions in that I'm trying to balance the two. However, as a Gemini (overly simplistic view, I know), my emotions are a foreign concept. Revealing my emotions is a sign of weakness.
2. What I must leave behind: 10 of Cups
When I'm with my mom, I always feel like everything is okay. There's seriously nothing out there like a mother's love. I'm very private about my personal life, and she doesn't ask questions, but she still gives me that comforting energy. Unfortunately, I can't be with her all the time. I have to leave that for today.
3. What I must take forward into tomorrow: 8 of Swords
Tomorrow is going to be a very conflicting day for me because I don't know how to approach my friend about the concerns I have. I want to be able to be open and honest with how I feel, but I've spent my life keeping everything private.
I did some additional readings about this conflict, and the 8 of Swords popped up every time. This conflict is really eating at me, and I do feel very stuck about what to do. I think tomorrow is going to be the big do or die time.
Um... I wasn't really sure what this meant for today. I guess I could classify the swords as my thoughts and my emotions in that I'm trying to balance the two. However, as a Gemini (overly simplistic view, I know), my emotions are a foreign concept. Revealing my emotions is a sign of weakness.
2. What I must leave behind: 10 of Cups
When I'm with my mom, I always feel like everything is okay. There's seriously nothing out there like a mother's love. I'm very private about my personal life, and she doesn't ask questions, but she still gives me that comforting energy. Unfortunately, I can't be with her all the time. I have to leave that for today.
3. What I must take forward into tomorrow: 8 of Swords
Tomorrow is going to be a very conflicting day for me because I don't know how to approach my friend about the concerns I have. I want to be able to be open and honest with how I feel, but I've spent my life keeping everything private.
I did some additional readings about this conflict, and the 8 of Swords popped up every time. This conflict is really eating at me, and I do feel very stuck about what to do. I think tomorrow is going to be the big do or die time.
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