I'm not really putting up daily 3 nowadays because my life isn't all that interesting, but I have been putting it in my journal. I decided to put this one up because it was Valentine's Day, and it wound up sucking ass in the end (despite performing).
1. What I did well today? 4 of Cups
I am acknowledging the fact that everything is not as peachy keen and harmonious as I had thought it would be. I'm beginning to realize that I'm so caught up in my issues that I sometimes miss the good opportunities in front of me.
2. What I need to leave behind? 5 of Wands
Yeah. Very accurate, Secret. Basically I had a gig last night (What's better than sitting in front of the TV watching The Notebook while eating a carton of Ben & Jerry's ice cream? Working!), and a dude I hooked up with was there. I knew he was going to be there because he was helping out with the event. He has some serious douche tendencies, so needless to say I was mad at the fact that this fool has a chick on his arm while I'm single. This got a huge WTF?!!?? from me. How does this asshole have someone? I didn't get it, and I don't get it still. Needless to say I spent most of the evening pissed off: Pissed that he doesn't have the common decency to be civil (no slapping my back with a magazine does not mean hello, nor is drunk texting me at 8AM on a Sunday), pissed at seeing him with someone while I'm single, and mostly pissed at myself for letting him affect me that way to the point where it impacted my dance. I'm angry at myself for letting someone so insignificant hold so much power over me, and I know I need to let it go.
3. What I need to take with me into tomorrow? 9 of Swords
I need to not lose sleep over this douchenozzle. He's just simply not worth my time or effort, and I just need to let it go. I am that which I am. He is that which he is.
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Monday, February 15, 2010
Thursday, January 28, 2010
Daily Reading for 1/27
1. What I did well: Knave of Cups
The photo shoot went well albeit it was very weird. I was allowing myself to portray the message of sensuality that the photographer wanted.
2. What I must leave behind: 7 of Wands
I was losing my patience with the photographer because he was on that line of being a photographer with a great idea and being a GWC. I think I was seriously about to rip his head off.
3. What I must take with me into tomorrow: The Hierophant
Now the teacher must return. I had my day off, and it's back to class and people are looking to me and my director for guidance for the upcoming show.
The photo shoot went well albeit it was very weird. I was allowing myself to portray the message of sensuality that the photographer wanted.
2. What I must leave behind: 7 of Wands
I was losing my patience with the photographer because he was on that line of being a photographer with a great idea and being a GWC. I think I was seriously about to rip his head off.
3. What I must take with me into tomorrow: The Hierophant
Now the teacher must return. I had my day off, and it's back to class and people are looking to me and my director for guidance for the upcoming show.
Sunday, January 24, 2010
Daily Reading for 1/24
1. What I did well: 2 of Swords
Um... I wasn't really sure what this meant for today. I guess I could classify the swords as my thoughts and my emotions in that I'm trying to balance the two. However, as a Gemini (overly simplistic view, I know), my emotions are a foreign concept. Revealing my emotions is a sign of weakness.
2. What I must leave behind: 10 of Cups
When I'm with my mom, I always feel like everything is okay. There's seriously nothing out there like a mother's love. I'm very private about my personal life, and she doesn't ask questions, but she still gives me that comforting energy. Unfortunately, I can't be with her all the time. I have to leave that for today.
3. What I must take forward into tomorrow: 8 of Swords
Tomorrow is going to be a very conflicting day for me because I don't know how to approach my friend about the concerns I have. I want to be able to be open and honest with how I feel, but I've spent my life keeping everything private.
I did some additional readings about this conflict, and the 8 of Swords popped up every time. This conflict is really eating at me, and I do feel very stuck about what to do. I think tomorrow is going to be the big do or die time.
Um... I wasn't really sure what this meant for today. I guess I could classify the swords as my thoughts and my emotions in that I'm trying to balance the two. However, as a Gemini (overly simplistic view, I know), my emotions are a foreign concept. Revealing my emotions is a sign of weakness.
2. What I must leave behind: 10 of Cups
When I'm with my mom, I always feel like everything is okay. There's seriously nothing out there like a mother's love. I'm very private about my personal life, and she doesn't ask questions, but she still gives me that comforting energy. Unfortunately, I can't be with her all the time. I have to leave that for today.
3. What I must take forward into tomorrow: 8 of Swords
Tomorrow is going to be a very conflicting day for me because I don't know how to approach my friend about the concerns I have. I want to be able to be open and honest with how I feel, but I've spent my life keeping everything private.
I did some additional readings about this conflict, and the 8 of Swords popped up every time. This conflict is really eating at me, and I do feel very stuck about what to do. I think tomorrow is going to be the big do or die time.
Daily Reading for 1/23
1. What I did well today: The High Priestess
I didn't let my internal struggles affect the way I taught class even though teaching was the last thing I wanted to do. I had to keep a good face on and not let my negative energy affect the class and my students.
2. What I must leave behind: Knave of Cups
I must let go of any lingering resentment that I'm feeling. It's time to move forward and be positive.
3. What I must take forward into tomorrow: 3 of Wands
Tomorrow is a new day. Just embrace whatever opportunities that come my way.
I tried the name spread that was on AE. It was a lovely 20-card spread, that I just wrote out in one sentence. It's a neat spread, but it told me what I already knew about myself. I've been looking for spreads that dug deeper. I had a conversation with Kafka's Ghost about it, she suggested choosing the card that I identified strongly with and then have cards around it. It was quite useful. I'll put up the readings later today.
I didn't let my internal struggles affect the way I taught class even though teaching was the last thing I wanted to do. I had to keep a good face on and not let my negative energy affect the class and my students.
2. What I must leave behind: Knave of Cups
I must let go of any lingering resentment that I'm feeling. It's time to move forward and be positive.
3. What I must take forward into tomorrow: 3 of Wands
Tomorrow is a new day. Just embrace whatever opportunities that come my way.
I tried the name spread that was on AE. It was a lovely 20-card spread, that I just wrote out in one sentence. It's a neat spread, but it told me what I already knew about myself. I've been looking for spreads that dug deeper. I had a conversation with Kafka's Ghost about it, she suggested choosing the card that I identified strongly with and then have cards around it. It was quite useful. I'll put up the readings later today.
Saturday, January 23, 2010
Daily Reading for 1/22
1. What I did well today: 9 of Cups
I think this card is my dance/artist card. It shows up whenever there's some sort of dance or artistic element involved. Today was no exception since I had rehearsal with my troupe after not dancing together in three months, and I had a collaboration with a photographer. My dance is my release, and it feels good to do it.
2. What I must leave behind: 9 of Wands
Cafe Astrology says that when you hurt someone with a Venus in Cancer, they begin to retreat into their "shell". That's me right now. I'm in retreat mode after a discussion with a friend of mine, and I want to discuss how I'm feeling with her. I feel like it's the only way to really leave it behind, but at the same time while I'll wear my heart on my sleeve, I'll keep my true emotions private. Right now, there's the shame of being chastised, the confusion and uncertainty of wanting to say something but not wanting to rock the boat, the question of how to move forward without needing to walk on eggshells. The easy answer is "Say something, silly girl!" Even my cards (Secret, Mermaids, and UF said it) suggest that I do it, but it's tough. I've learned to keep it inside and put on a happy face. Now, I'm getting into venting mode.
3. What I must take with me into tomorrow: Ace of Swords
This is all about having a plan. I know I'm going to need one for class. Maybe this is even about how to approach my friend. I dunno...
I think this card is my dance/artist card. It shows up whenever there's some sort of dance or artistic element involved. Today was no exception since I had rehearsal with my troupe after not dancing together in three months, and I had a collaboration with a photographer. My dance is my release, and it feels good to do it.
2. What I must leave behind: 9 of Wands
Cafe Astrology says that when you hurt someone with a Venus in Cancer, they begin to retreat into their "shell". That's me right now. I'm in retreat mode after a discussion with a friend of mine, and I want to discuss how I'm feeling with her. I feel like it's the only way to really leave it behind, but at the same time while I'll wear my heart on my sleeve, I'll keep my true emotions private. Right now, there's the shame of being chastised, the confusion and uncertainty of wanting to say something but not wanting to rock the boat, the question of how to move forward without needing to walk on eggshells. The easy answer is "Say something, silly girl!" Even my cards (Secret, Mermaids, and UF said it) suggest that I do it, but it's tough. I've learned to keep it inside and put on a happy face. Now, I'm getting into venting mode.
3. What I must take with me into tomorrow: Ace of Swords
This is all about having a plan. I know I'm going to need one for class. Maybe this is even about how to approach my friend. I dunno...
Sunday, January 3, 2010
Daily Spread
As a part of my PDR, I'm going to do a Body-Mind-Spirit spread in the morning, then do an overall thought on the cards. I attempted a one-card draw, but it just didn't work for me.
Body - 9 of Swords
Mind - King of Pentacles reversed
Spirit - Knight of Wands
It wasn't difficult for me to figure out what this was about. I had expressed the possibility of going to a dance party tonight. My body was saying, "Rest, silly girl!", but I had all of this pent up energy that I still needed to let out. It was actually driving me a little crazy. My mind was agreeing with my body (that king looked mad at me). My mind said that it was foolish to extend myself even further even after what I've done. My spirit is the sole voice if dissent. It's saying, "Go! Dance! Let out that energy!"
2-1 No dancing. Must rest. Plus it feels like 5 degrees outside.
Body - 9 of Swords
Mind - King of Pentacles reversed
Spirit - Knight of Wands
It wasn't difficult for me to figure out what this was about. I had expressed the possibility of going to a dance party tonight. My body was saying, "Rest, silly girl!", but I had all of this pent up energy that I still needed to let out. It was actually driving me a little crazy. My mind was agreeing with my body (that king looked mad at me). My mind said that it was foolish to extend myself even further even after what I've done. My spirit is the sole voice if dissent. It's saying, "Go! Dance! Let out that energy!"
2-1 No dancing. Must rest. Plus it feels like 5 degrees outside.
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