Portrait Spread

I found this lovely spread on Aeclectic Tarot, and I thought it would be great to do it. I love to compile spreads and out them in my journal. Some I'll actually do, others I'll observe and try to understand what Secret is telling me. The brackets indicate that the card is laid out horizontally.

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1. This is how I see the world. This is what I see. The Magician

I see potential. I see this budding energy that's just waiting to take the world by storm. I feel like there's a budding energy that's waiting to explode.

2. This is what I smell, this is where I'm following my nose to. Knave of Cups

I took this position as if I were a pointer or a bloodhound. What am I latching onto as a guide for me. Now, I love this knave. He is so sweet and gentle, and I smile every time I see him. He is my favorite of the four. That being said, he scares the shit out of me. Why? I don't want to be set up for disappointment. He comes with a message of potential love and romance. I'm not even speculating who at this point, but considering what I want now, I hope he's not playing games with me.

3. This is how I talk. This is how I communicate. 7 of Pentacles

At first I was wondering what Secret was trying to say about it, but it just hit me. When I first meet people, I tend to take a step back and assess where I am and how people approach each other before I put myself out there. I'm very shy and guarded in the beginning, but it really doesn't take a long time before I become a chatterbox.

4. This is what I hear others say about me. 9 of Wands

My first instinct seeing this card is about loneliness. I think people realize that as open as I am about a lot of things, I still keep so much of myself very private, and that they often don't see the "real" me (whoever she is).

5. This is what I hear myself say about myself. The Devil

This is very accurate. I'm constantly putting myself down. Once a negative thought comes into my head, it just keeps going and going. It starts with one thing then just keeps going. I can't watch myself in videos because the first thoughts are about my body, and then it just escalates into my abilities as a dancer and choreographer. I beat myself up a lot.

6. This is how I think; this is my perception of the world. Temperance

I try to look to the outside world to find balance. I'm looking to nature for its healing energy and power. I try to be open to new opportunities.

Daily Reading for 1/22

1. What I did well today: 9 of Cups

I think this card is my dance/artist card. It shows up whenever there's some sort of dance or artistic element involved. Today was no exception since I had rehearsal with my troupe after not dancing together in three months, and I had a collaboration with a photographer. My dance is my release, and it feels good to do it.

2. What I must leave behind: 9 of Wands

Cafe Astrology says that when you hurt someone with a Venus in Cancer, they begin to retreat into their "shell". That's me right now. I'm in retreat mode after a discussion with a friend of mine, and I want to discuss how I'm feeling with her. I feel like it's the only way to really leave it behind, but at the same time while I'll wear my heart on my sleeve, I'll keep my true emotions private. Right now, there's the shame of being chastised, the confusion and uncertainty of wanting to say something but not wanting to rock the boat, the question of how to move forward without needing to walk on eggshells. The easy answer is "Say something, silly girl!" Even my cards (Secret, Mermaids, and UF said it) suggest that I do it, but it's tough. I've learned to keep it inside and put on a happy face. Now, I'm getting into venting mode.

3. What I must take with me into tomorrow: Ace of Swords

This is all about having a plan. I know I'm going to need one for class. Maybe this is even about how to approach my friend. I dunno...